Monday, December 31, 2012

YUM! (not)


Anyone wanna guess what this is?

fruit punch? melted margarita?

Negative. That right there is a (not so)tasty beverage called Glucola.

Last week my sister was in town and was going to escort me to my 3 hour glucose test and keep me company. 

First let's talk about how STUPID holidays are! They interrupt everything! Christmas Eve as a holiday? I don't think so, just a chance for people to get an extra day off. New Years Eve as a holiday? I don't think so. I don't even get the point of being closed on New Years. Yes it's a new year, who cares! If those days fall on a weekend then awesome! But when they fall during the week it royally screws up EVERYTHING.

Due to getting the boys Wednesday, having school drop off usually and the fact that I work I wanted to do my testing on Monday or Tuesday before we have all 3 boys and Jake running on no sleep due to working graveyard. However with Tuesday being the holiday that everything is closed I was left to Monday. Thankfully the lab was open!

However once I get in there I'm told that I'm supposed to call to make an appointment for a 3 hour glucose test. I explained that I had called the week before to make an appointment and I was told they don't take appointments and it's by walk in only! Follow this by them not having my blood work orders in the computer. So they try calling my doctor. CLOSED! On Christmas Eve, I DON'T CARE IT'S NOT A HOLIDAY TO ME AND I STILL NEED CARE! So they cannot get a new order faxed to them. Call the other lab that it was faxed to, guess what happens there?! CLOSED! So I'm told that they cannot do it because they can't hold my blood for 2 days and not have anywhere to send it.  OH and don't forget there is a special 3 day diet I have to follow beforehand to get my body used to the extra insulin. I was never told about this with my 1 or 3 hour glucose test for Emery. Just that I was to fast 6-10 hours before the test. They hand me the little diet form and send me on my way.

Cue the pregnancy hormones and I walk out ready to cry, I'm so pissed off. Instead of crying I chose to rant a few naughty words of choice to my sister (who was wonderful and tried calling the midwife just to get a run around of voicemails!) I now have to wait an entire week to try again.

This weekend I told Jake I needed to go do my glucose test first thing Monday morning when he gets home from work at 7:45am. Middle of the night I wake up in a panic remembering that I have to make an appointment. Thankfully they open at 7 so when I called at 7:20 someone answered and just told me to come in.

Thankfully it went down without a hitch. They had my orders. I had my own room with a big comfy leather chair to relax in and a magazine to read.

The first hour was the worst. No eating for about 11 hours, starving and I have to chug a huge glass of ice cold glucola in the only flavor they had. I was so nauseous for that hour and the only thing that kept me from puking was the fact that I brought a cup of hot tea to sip on to make me feel full and wash away that nasty sweetness in my mouth. After the 3rd blood draw I was fine. Thankfully after that first hour the rest flew by and I was done and outta there. I gobbled down two cheese sticks and a handful of triscuits on the drive home and made it safely.

Now we're just crossing our fingers and praying that we just have one big healthy girl growing in there naturally and not due to Gestational Diabetes. 

I'll be calling my midwife Thursday to see if they got the results. Here's to hoping!

Thursday, December 27, 2012

week by week: 26



How far along: 26 weeks
How big is baby:still measuring big
Total weight gain:about a pound a week
Maternity clothes:Oh yea!
Sleep: better with a sleeping pill from the doctor.
Best moment these weeks: knowing we get to see our girl!
Gender: GIRL!!!
Craving: nothing
Movement: super busy in there!
Labor Signs: none
Belly Button in or out: in
Stretch marks: nothing new
What I miss:Being comfortable. If I lie on my left side she gets crazy. If i sit too far forward I squish her so she gets angry and punches me.
What I am looking forward to:Meeting our girl.

Obsessing Over: my GD test.
Working On: crocheting a scarf. Then Ill be making a cocoon for her for photos and making her a blanket.
Anticipating: Our ultrasound on the 10th
Listening To: Law and Order: SVU

Friday, December 21, 2012

Week by week: 25



How far along:25 weeks
How big is baby: Well at our appt yesterday I am measuring 4cm bigger. It's normal to be 2cm bigger but 4cm is a cause for "concern". (More on that in another post)
Total weight gain: Still about a pound a week I believe.
Maternity clothes:Oh yea!
Sleep: It's been a little better. Trying to stay on top of my magnesium supplement and have my evening sleepy time tea. The midwife gave me a prescription for something for nights I really need it.
Best moment these weeks:The doctor wanting us to have another ultrasound to see how big Little Miss is.
Gender: GIRL!!!
Craving:Nothing really
Movement:Going super crazy in there all the time. She rarely stops moving and you can see my belly moving constantly with her flips, rolls, kicks and jabs.
Labor Signs:None thankfully
Belly Button in or out: still an innie.
Stretch marks:Nothing new.
What I miss:Sanity. I am so impatient all the time.
What I am looking forward to: Seeing our pretty girls face in 3 weeks!

Obsessing Over:the glucose test on Monday. Praying I don't have Gestational Diabetes.

Working On:Getting things organized. I organized the baby clothes into NB, 0-3/3 and 6+ so I know what we can store until it is needed.

Anticipating:The ultrasound in 3 weeks.

Listening To:Emery crying something about "tires". *sigh* obsessed!



Friday, December 14, 2012

Tragedy

My heart hurts for the lives lost today. I woke up and read that there had been a shooting in an elementary school with one child and one adult dead. My heart ached for those families and the  parent but I also thought "thank goodness it ended there!" How wrong I was! We turn on the tv and all we see is updates. 20 children dead, 6 adults, the killer and another adult at a different location. Those babies! Those innocent kids who will never get to experience their life. They went to school excited to learn their ABC's and do their basic math and tragically never got to go home and share their day with their family. I cried thinking of those parents in a complete panic if their child was alive or gone. Impatiently waiting to snatch up those precious little bodies and never let go. Those would be the longest and most painful moments of your life waiting to know. Unbearable! I look at my beautiful son and these handsome, intelligent brothers of his who are almost school age and my heart clenches thinking it could have been our oldest! I know that this is predicted in the bible but it doesn't make it any easier. It'll never get easier to hear about these tragedies. 

I don't even know how to think of discussing it with the kids. Ethan overheard at lunch but how do you explain to a 4 year old? I just said that sometimes people are sick, but not like we get sick with stuffy noses and a cough but the sickness is in their brain and that sometimes it makes them do bad things. I didn't know what else to say, I don't want him to be scared to start school and he's too young to fully understand what the concept of  what DEATH means. However I think this is a point to make about weapons. The boys think that guns and shooting at each other is ok. I am constantly telling them that though they may do that at their moms house it isn't acceptable and is never to be done at our house. I explained that weapons are only to keep you safe or provide your family with food. They just look at me like i'm on some tangent again and I never know how to get the point across that they are not toys even if the gun is an actual toy.  Jake and I have a lot of discussing to do to figure out an appropriate way to address this, even if it's just to the oldest. If we get him set straight he can be the role model for Ethan and know that that type of play is unacceptable. I honestly don't think I will make it through the conversation without crying as I have tears trying to escape just typing this.

Until we can figure that out my thoughts and prayers are with everyone involved. I hope those families can move past this. It will be the hardest thing to ever have to deal with but with time it will hopefully ease the pain. I just pray that I never ever have to fathom this about my children, selfish as that is. No parent ever wants to go through a tragedy like this. I hope those kids can go back to school without being constantly afraid, to work through their trauma of losing their closest friends and teachers. I hope they all have a good support system and can work through the pain than hide it away like the shooter must have done to do something so horrendous. I hope all help is made available to that community and that schools take safety more seriously. I guarantee we will be seeing lots of slips sent home with safety information and the schools restricting access...and I will be praying by the time that Emery and the baby are school age that there will be awesome homeschool options available...because to be honest I never want my kids in that scenario.

2 Timothy 3: 1-5         But know this, that in the last days critical times hard to deal with will be here.2For men will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, self‐assuming, haughty, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, disloyal,3having no natural affection, not open to any agreement, slanderers, without self‐control, fierce, without love of goodness,4betrayers, headstrong, puffed up [with pride], lovers of pleasures rather than lovers of God,5having a form of godly devotion but proving false to its power; and from these turn away.

Thursday, December 13, 2012

Snoozey time.


I am hoping that this tea helps me sleep.

With Emery I had no issues sleeping, I slept all the time and was able to take naps when I wanted and sleep easily.

For some reason with this pregnancy that is not the case. I have no issue falling asleep at bed time but I often wake up in the middle of the night and can't go back to sleep. 2 nights ago I was awake from 1am-6am. I was able to sleep till 8:10 because Jake got home from work, got Emery up and he laid on the couch trying to snooze and let me sleep a little bit. (side note and more on this later: he seems so unsympathetic of pregnancy most of the time and then he does this!) Talk about love that man! Was only an extra half hour-40 minutes but it was needed and I made it through out the day.

I wish I could nap but I just can't seem to relax and shut myself off during the day. Seems like the days I want a nap is also the day that Emery only naps for less than an hour. Days I don't want to nap he will sleep for 2 hours!!! Of course!

The times I can nap I wake up SO groggy and cranky. Just can't seem to function the rest of the day. Maybe this is why I don't nap because I subconsciously know I will be a cranky wench the rest of the the day.

So here's to hoping that the tea on top of my magnesium supplement and epsom salt baths helps me snooze better.

10 minutes in from my cup of tea and I already feel sleepy... *fingers crossed*


Week by week: 24

How far along:24 weeks
How big is baby:bigger than this states so who knows at this point.
Total weight gain: 1 pound a week. Right on target. whew.
Maternity clothes: yup
Sleep: horrible! Slept like the dead with Emery and this pregnancy has middle of the night insomnia. I despise it.
Best moment these weeks: non pregnancy related is seeing my sister and niece. I guess pregnancy related is we had our last monthly appt and now switch to bi-weekly.
Gender: GIRL!!!
Craving: nothing
Movement: Rolling around and driving me bonkers. If I sit or lay how she doesn't like she let's me know!
Labor Signs: sometimes I think I feel Braxton Hicks and then its gone so I'm not sure if its tightening or just how she rolls and positions that makes it tight.
Belly Button in or out: still an innie.
Stretch marks: nothing new
What I miss: not being as big as a house and my sleeeeep
What I am looking forward to: I can tell you what I'm not looking forward to this week. Glucola. *gag*

Obsessing Over:A middle name. So stumped and ready to just drop the name we have and start over. I thought girls names were the easy ones?!

Working On:Figuring out how to get my scheduled posts to post and little baby projects.

Thinking About:Jake and his baby girl. He loves his babies so much and I LOVE THAT!

Anticipating: Getting things done. Emery and baby room rearranged, clothes washed and sorted. I have no motivation, I don't know what this "nesting" thing is that I hear so much about...someone want to sprinkle me with some of it?

Listening To:"Truck Yeah" by Tim McGraw on the music channel...and a stupid toy whose batteries are dying and it randomly starts going off with its sirens and radio calls. Scares the crap out of me!

Feeling: Better after a shower. Emery woke up SO cranky and that's not good for this pregnant mama.

Praying:That the GD test goes well and labor will be fast this time around.

Thursday, December 6, 2012

23 Week OB Appt

Everything was normal with baby. I am still completely unhappy with Deaconess hospital. The midwife we saw this visit actually asked us if we were interested in birthing classes or if we had been asked. I had to hold back and keep my mouth shut that "no, actually no one has asked. No one has asked if I want a tour of the hospital, no one has asked if I have a birth plan, no one has asked anything about anything!!!" She was too kind for me to flip out on even though she kept us waiting for 30 minutes.

Your heart rate was 150
Fundus height was 26cm so I think you're measuring maybe a week or two ahead which brother Emery always was.
And best part?! I'm only gaining a pound a week! I need to get my butt onto the treadmill and maybe it'll be less, though most weight is baby related.

I couldn't believe that this appointment was our last monthly appointment! We go in 2 weeks for biweekly visits. Talk about time flying by!!!

The downside...duh duh duh...It's time for that disgustingly sweet beverage also known as GLUCOLA. Pardon me while I go throw up thinking about it. I am praying that it's normal this time and not "slightly elevated" and requires me to go in for the two hour blood draw. We will also find out if my iron levels are ok or if that could be contributing to my sleepiness and I need to start taking an iron supplement.

I will have to go to the appointment alone because there is no way daddy is going to stand by and watch vials and vials of blood be sucked from my arm and control this monster brother of yours for an entire hour before they draw more vials of blood. We don't need him passing out while caring for Emery.

We'll see how that goes, I still have to schedule the appointment. I've only slacked for a day now.

Monday, December 3, 2012

Week by week: 23


How far along:23 weeks
How big is baby:Well the fundus height was 26cm so right on target or a little bigger
Total weight gain: a pound a week. When I mentioned this to daddy he said 'yea but how many more weeks do we have?" *gasp* did you really just ask me that?! Lol.
Maternity clothes: yup
Sleep: been pretty cruddy lately. Trying to double up on vitamin D and see if it helps.
Best moment these weeks: Brothers showing interest in baby and wanting to make decorations for her side of the room.
Gender: GIRL!!!
Craving: Steak! And Totino's pizza. Love that crispy crust!
Movements: almost driving me crazy with all the kicks, punches and flipping. Sometimes I just go "ughhh" in discomfort when she spins in circles in there.
Labor Signs: None and it better stay that way for another another trimester.
Belly Button in or out: still an innie.
Stretch marks: nothing new
What I miss:still sleeping on my back. My arm/shoulder starts to hurt in the middle of the night and I have to roll over which isn't an easy task.
What I am looking forward to: Making her swaddle blankets and hair bows.

Thankful

Each week I get a writing prompt emailed to me. I find it hard to sometimes find things to write about. I get so wrapped up in everyday things that I forget. I follow Tracy from Trousdell Five and she mentioned the writing prompts from here. I signed up and decided to get started.

I still don't have time to do them weekly but I save the email into my blogging folder so that when I get the time I can sit down and do one.

This one was sent around Thanksgiving time but that was an incredibly hectic week for us and I'm just now getting to it.

So here we go..."I am thankful"

I am thankful for so many things and people. It's hard to realize just how lucky we are sometimes. That people would love to have some of the issues that we have simply because they may not have what we do. Problems finding tires? Well they wish they even had a car to worry about tires. My house is too warm and it makes my pregnant self cranky? Well there are people who cannot afford heat and would probably rather be too warm than freezing cold. I ate something that gave me heartburn all night, well someone would love to have heartburn just to say that they had a meal for the first time in who knows how long. So I am thankful for all those little things that I may not always think about everyday.

I am thankful for 3 wonderful boys who make me laugh, who make me irritated, who remind me everyday to be thankful for children because some people can't have them.

I am thankful for my family who is so supportive and caring.

Mostly I am thankful for Jake. He works SO hard for his family. He picks up overtime whenever he can even if it means even less sleep. He goes to work on only 3, yes THREE hours of sleep because he chose to stay up and spend time with his family. This week that I worked all day for two days, I came home to a cleaned up kitchen and dinner made. He looks out for my family when they need things like tires. He has found me wheels and tires for my car. He does car maintenance and lets me know when we need to do things. He is so dedicated to anything he sets his mind to. He is incredibly patient. Sometimes these kids make me want to pull my hair out and he seems to breeze through it. Trust me sometimes those tables are reversed but this pregnancy has left me with no patience. He steps up to the plate for anything. He is the best daddy, he is constantly making the kids laugh, snuggling them, playing games with them, reading to them, making sure they have what they need and more. He listens to me vent and complain when I'm frustrated and never tells me to shut up and get over it. I could go on and on. I am just so thankful to have him by my side, raising our handsome boys and impatiently waiting to meet our little girl.

I hope he knows just how much I appreciate him. Sometimes I don't have the best way of showing it, but when I fail that way I try to tell him. I don't do it enough, but I hope that what amount I do he feels that I am sincere.

Sunday, December 2, 2012

Little things you love

You are such a stinking character Emery. Every single day with you makes me so happy.

Recently you love hugging the fire hydrant when we walk outside and you say "quish".
We always say "squish" when we give you hugs or you say "squish" when you give us one and you squeeze us tight. I guess you like to hug the fire hydrant too. Whatever makes you happy kiddo!

You LOVE the snow. You had a complete meltdown about putting on your snow pants, winter jacket and gloves. Screaming fit. Then once you got outside you had a blast. Picking up big snow chunks and throwing it around. You didn't want to come back inside and cried as we carried you upstairs. I'm glad you're a snow bunny. I can't wait to see you sledding for the first time.

You love to say "wheeeee!" when daddy goes around a corner or we go down a hill. I guarantee you'll be yelling it as you go sledding down a hill with daddy.

You have picked up on manners. You say please when you want something, thank you once you've been given it and then you say "welcome" after we say it. You actually don't say thank you, you say "thanks!"

Go-ging is "going". You love to shut the tv off when it's time to leave and go somewhere.

Gango is how you say mango...as in our durango.

You call blankets "blanks".

When you get all super crazy over tires on the computer daddy tells you to "chill out". You started repeating it. Except when you say it you sound like the chinese man off the movie The Hangover. You say "chee ow". Cutest thing ever and cracks me up. I don't remember what I was getting upset about the other day but out of nowhere you just say "chee ow". I definitely needed that reminder and the laugh definitely made me decompress. I keep trying to get it on video so I never forget how hilarious you are when you say it.

I also have the worse baby brain going on and need to make a note of everything I don't want to forget because I literally cannot remember it 5 minutes later.

Lately you've loved playing with your big lego's. You load them up in your vehicles and drive them all over the house. Especially the school bus. I think it's a little people school bus and you run so fast through the house with that bus that all we hear is a high pitched squeak. You literally are going to drive the wheels right off that noisy little bus.

You still are obsessed with apples. If we drive by them in the store you freak out.

You love to "keen". Just tonight I kept telling you to get out of the kitchen and you would. Then it'd get quiet and I'd have to tell you again. I should learn the first time! You then come walking out with a huge rope of Lysol wipes. You pulled out every single wipe to help clean. I then had to confiscate them and stuff them all back in the container. I am so glad you want to help and clean things but that is not how we go about it lol.

I will have to finish this up later as you just pooped, I know this because you stink horrendously and you love to announce it immediately after the fact but still refuse to use the big boy potty. You're such a handful and I love you...and your stinky butt!