Monday, December 31, 2012

YUM! (not)

Anyone wanna guess what this is?

fruit punch? melted margarita?

Negative. That right there is a (not so)tasty beverage called Glucola.

Last week my sister was in town and was going to escort me to my 3 hour glucose test and keep me company. 

First let's talk about how STUPID holidays are! They interrupt everything! Christmas Eve as a holiday? I don't think so, just a chance for people to get an extra day off. New Years Eve as a holiday? I don't think so. I don't even get the point of being closed on New Years. Yes it's a new year, who cares! If those days fall on a weekend then awesome! But when they fall during the week it royally screws up EVERYTHING.

Due to getting the boys Wednesday, having school drop off usually and the fact that I work I wanted to do my testing on Monday or Tuesday before we have all 3 boys and Jake running on no sleep due to working graveyard. However with Tuesday being the holiday that everything is closed I was left to Monday. Thankfully the lab was open!

However once I get in there I'm told that I'm supposed to call to make an appointment for a 3 hour glucose test. I explained that I had called the week before to make an appointment and I was told they don't take appointments and it's by walk in only! Follow this by them not having my blood work orders in the computer. So they try calling my doctor. CLOSED! On Christmas Eve, I DON'T CARE IT'S NOT A HOLIDAY TO ME AND I STILL NEED CARE! So they cannot get a new order faxed to them. Call the other lab that it was faxed to, guess what happens there?! CLOSED! So I'm told that they cannot do it because they can't hold my blood for 2 days and not have anywhere to send it.  OH and don't forget there is a special 3 day diet I have to follow beforehand to get my body used to the extra insulin. I was never told about this with my 1 or 3 hour glucose test for Emery. Just that I was to fast 6-10 hours before the test. They hand me the little diet form and send me on my way.

Cue the pregnancy hormones and I walk out ready to cry, I'm so pissed off. Instead of crying I chose to rant a few naughty words of choice to my sister (who was wonderful and tried calling the midwife just to get a run around of voicemails!) I now have to wait an entire week to try again.

This weekend I told Jake I needed to go do my glucose test first thing Monday morning when he gets home from work at 7:45am. Middle of the night I wake up in a panic remembering that I have to make an appointment. Thankfully they open at 7 so when I called at 7:20 someone answered and just told me to come in.

Thankfully it went down without a hitch. They had my orders. I had my own room with a big comfy leather chair to relax in and a magazine to read.

The first hour was the worst. No eating for about 11 hours, starving and I have to chug a huge glass of ice cold glucola in the only flavor they had. I was so nauseous for that hour and the only thing that kept me from puking was the fact that I brought a cup of hot tea to sip on to make me feel full and wash away that nasty sweetness in my mouth. After the 3rd blood draw I was fine. Thankfully after that first hour the rest flew by and I was done and outta there. I gobbled down two cheese sticks and a handful of triscuits on the drive home and made it safely.

Now we're just crossing our fingers and praying that we just have one big healthy girl growing in there naturally and not due to Gestational Diabetes. 

I'll be calling my midwife Thursday to see if they got the results. Here's to hoping!

Thursday, December 27, 2012

week by week: 26

How far along: 26 weeks
How big is baby:still measuring big
Total weight gain:about a pound a week
Maternity clothes:Oh yea!
Sleep: better with a sleeping pill from the doctor.
Best moment these weeks: knowing we get to see our girl!
Gender: GIRL!!!
Craving: nothing
Movement: super busy in there!
Labor Signs: none
Belly Button in or out: in
Stretch marks: nothing new
What I miss:Being comfortable. If I lie on my left side she gets crazy. If i sit too far forward I squish her so she gets angry and punches me.
What I am looking forward to:Meeting our girl.

Obsessing Over: my GD test.
Working On: crocheting a scarf. Then Ill be making a cocoon for her for photos and making her a blanket.
Anticipating: Our ultrasound on the 10th
Listening To: Law and Order: SVU

Friday, December 21, 2012

Week by week: 25

How far along:25 weeks
How big is baby: Well at our appt yesterday I am measuring 4cm bigger. It's normal to be 2cm bigger but 4cm is a cause for "concern". (More on that in another post)
Total weight gain: Still about a pound a week I believe.
Maternity clothes:Oh yea!
Sleep: It's been a little better. Trying to stay on top of my magnesium supplement and have my evening sleepy time tea. The midwife gave me a prescription for something for nights I really need it.
Best moment these weeks:The doctor wanting us to have another ultrasound to see how big Little Miss is.
Gender: GIRL!!!
Craving:Nothing really
Movement:Going super crazy in there all the time. She rarely stops moving and you can see my belly moving constantly with her flips, rolls, kicks and jabs.
Labor Signs:None thankfully
Belly Button in or out: still an innie.
Stretch marks:Nothing new.
What I miss:Sanity. I am so impatient all the time.
What I am looking forward to: Seeing our pretty girls face in 3 weeks!

Obsessing Over:the glucose test on Monday. Praying I don't have Gestational Diabetes.

Working On:Getting things organized. I organized the baby clothes into NB, 0-3/3 and 6+ so I know what we can store until it is needed.

Anticipating:The ultrasound in 3 weeks.

Listening To:Emery crying something about "tires". *sigh* obsessed!

Friday, December 14, 2012


My heart hurts for the lives lost today. I woke up and read that there had been a shooting in an elementary school with one child and one adult dead. My heart ached for those families and the  parent but I also thought "thank goodness it ended there!" How wrong I was! We turn on the tv and all we see is updates. 20 children dead, 6 adults, the killer and another adult at a different location. Those babies! Those innocent kids who will never get to experience their life. They went to school excited to learn their ABC's and do their basic math and tragically never got to go home and share their day with their family. I cried thinking of those parents in a complete panic if their child was alive or gone. Impatiently waiting to snatch up those precious little bodies and never let go. Those would be the longest and most painful moments of your life waiting to know. Unbearable! I look at my beautiful son and these handsome, intelligent brothers of his who are almost school age and my heart clenches thinking it could have been our oldest! I know that this is predicted in the bible but it doesn't make it any easier. It'll never get easier to hear about these tragedies. 

I don't even know how to think of discussing it with the kids. Ethan overheard at lunch but how do you explain to a 4 year old? I just said that sometimes people are sick, but not like we get sick with stuffy noses and a cough but the sickness is in their brain and that sometimes it makes them do bad things. I didn't know what else to say, I don't want him to be scared to start school and he's too young to fully understand what the concept of  what DEATH means. However I think this is a point to make about weapons. The boys think that guns and shooting at each other is ok. I am constantly telling them that though they may do that at their moms house it isn't acceptable and is never to be done at our house. I explained that weapons are only to keep you safe or provide your family with food. They just look at me like i'm on some tangent again and I never know how to get the point across that they are not toys even if the gun is an actual toy.  Jake and I have a lot of discussing to do to figure out an appropriate way to address this, even if it's just to the oldest. If we get him set straight he can be the role model for Ethan and know that that type of play is unacceptable. I honestly don't think I will make it through the conversation without crying as I have tears trying to escape just typing this.

Until we can figure that out my thoughts and prayers are with everyone involved. I hope those families can move past this. It will be the hardest thing to ever have to deal with but with time it will hopefully ease the pain. I just pray that I never ever have to fathom this about my children, selfish as that is. No parent ever wants to go through a tragedy like this. I hope those kids can go back to school without being constantly afraid, to work through their trauma of losing their closest friends and teachers. I hope they all have a good support system and can work through the pain than hide it away like the shooter must have done to do something so horrendous. I hope all help is made available to that community and that schools take safety more seriously. I guarantee we will be seeing lots of slips sent home with safety information and the schools restricting access...and I will be praying by the time that Emery and the baby are school age that there will be awesome homeschool options available...because to be honest I never want my kids in that scenario.

2 Timothy 3: 1-5         But know this, that in the last days critical times hard to deal with will be here.2For men will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, self‐assuming, haughty, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, disloyal,3having no natural affection, not open to any agreement, slanderers, without self‐control, fierce, without love of goodness,4betrayers, headstrong, puffed up [with pride], lovers of pleasures rather than lovers of God,5having a form of godly devotion but proving false to its power; and from these turn away.

Thursday, December 13, 2012

Snoozey time.

I am hoping that this tea helps me sleep.

With Emery I had no issues sleeping, I slept all the time and was able to take naps when I wanted and sleep easily.

For some reason with this pregnancy that is not the case. I have no issue falling asleep at bed time but I often wake up in the middle of the night and can't go back to sleep. 2 nights ago I was awake from 1am-6am. I was able to sleep till 8:10 because Jake got home from work, got Emery up and he laid on the couch trying to snooze and let me sleep a little bit. (side note and more on this later: he seems so unsympathetic of pregnancy most of the time and then he does this!) Talk about love that man! Was only an extra half hour-40 minutes but it was needed and I made it through out the day.

I wish I could nap but I just can't seem to relax and shut myself off during the day. Seems like the days I want a nap is also the day that Emery only naps for less than an hour. Days I don't want to nap he will sleep for 2 hours!!! Of course!

The times I can nap I wake up SO groggy and cranky. Just can't seem to function the rest of the day. Maybe this is why I don't nap because I subconsciously know I will be a cranky wench the rest of the the day.

So here's to hoping that the tea on top of my magnesium supplement and epsom salt baths helps me snooze better.

10 minutes in from my cup of tea and I already feel sleepy... *fingers crossed*

Week by week: 24

How far along:24 weeks
How big is baby:bigger than this states so who knows at this point.
Total weight gain: 1 pound a week. Right on target. whew.
Maternity clothes: yup
Sleep: horrible! Slept like the dead with Emery and this pregnancy has middle of the night insomnia. I despise it.
Best moment these weeks: non pregnancy related is seeing my sister and niece. I guess pregnancy related is we had our last monthly appt and now switch to bi-weekly.
Gender: GIRL!!!
Craving: nothing
Movement: Rolling around and driving me bonkers. If I sit or lay how she doesn't like she let's me know!
Labor Signs: sometimes I think I feel Braxton Hicks and then its gone so I'm not sure if its tightening or just how she rolls and positions that makes it tight.
Belly Button in or out: still an innie.
Stretch marks: nothing new
What I miss: not being as big as a house and my sleeeeep
What I am looking forward to: I can tell you what I'm not looking forward to this week. Glucola. *gag*

Obsessing Over:A middle name. So stumped and ready to just drop the name we have and start over. I thought girls names were the easy ones?!

Working On:Figuring out how to get my scheduled posts to post and little baby projects.

Thinking About:Jake and his baby girl. He loves his babies so much and I LOVE THAT!

Anticipating: Getting things done. Emery and baby room rearranged, clothes washed and sorted. I have no motivation, I don't know what this "nesting" thing is that I hear so much about...someone want to sprinkle me with some of it?

Listening To:"Truck Yeah" by Tim McGraw on the music channel...and a stupid toy whose batteries are dying and it randomly starts going off with its sirens and radio calls. Scares the crap out of me!

Feeling: Better after a shower. Emery woke up SO cranky and that's not good for this pregnant mama.

Praying:That the GD test goes well and labor will be fast this time around.

Thursday, December 6, 2012

23 Week OB Appt

Everything was normal with baby. I am still completely unhappy with Deaconess hospital. The midwife we saw this visit actually asked us if we were interested in birthing classes or if we had been asked. I had to hold back and keep my mouth shut that "no, actually no one has asked. No one has asked if I want a tour of the hospital, no one has asked if I have a birth plan, no one has asked anything about anything!!!" She was too kind for me to flip out on even though she kept us waiting for 30 minutes.

Your heart rate was 150
Fundus height was 26cm so I think you're measuring maybe a week or two ahead which brother Emery always was.
And best part?! I'm only gaining a pound a week! I need to get my butt onto the treadmill and maybe it'll be less, though most weight is baby related.

I couldn't believe that this appointment was our last monthly appointment! We go in 2 weeks for biweekly visits. Talk about time flying by!!!

The downside...duh duh duh...It's time for that disgustingly sweet beverage also known as GLUCOLA. Pardon me while I go throw up thinking about it. I am praying that it's normal this time and not "slightly elevated" and requires me to go in for the two hour blood draw. We will also find out if my iron levels are ok or if that could be contributing to my sleepiness and I need to start taking an iron supplement.

I will have to go to the appointment alone because there is no way daddy is going to stand by and watch vials and vials of blood be sucked from my arm and control this monster brother of yours for an entire hour before they draw more vials of blood. We don't need him passing out while caring for Emery.

We'll see how that goes, I still have to schedule the appointment. I've only slacked for a day now.

Monday, December 3, 2012

Week by week: 23

How far along:23 weeks
How big is baby:Well the fundus height was 26cm so right on target or a little bigger
Total weight gain: a pound a week. When I mentioned this to daddy he said 'yea but how many more weeks do we have?" *gasp* did you really just ask me that?! Lol.
Maternity clothes: yup
Sleep: been pretty cruddy lately. Trying to double up on vitamin D and see if it helps.
Best moment these weeks: Brothers showing interest in baby and wanting to make decorations for her side of the room.
Gender: GIRL!!!
Craving: Steak! And Totino's pizza. Love that crispy crust!
Movements: almost driving me crazy with all the kicks, punches and flipping. Sometimes I just go "ughhh" in discomfort when she spins in circles in there.
Labor Signs: None and it better stay that way for another another trimester.
Belly Button in or out: still an innie.
Stretch marks: nothing new
What I miss:still sleeping on my back. My arm/shoulder starts to hurt in the middle of the night and I have to roll over which isn't an easy task.
What I am looking forward to: Making her swaddle blankets and hair bows.


Each week I get a writing prompt emailed to me. I find it hard to sometimes find things to write about. I get so wrapped up in everyday things that I forget. I follow Tracy from Trousdell Five and she mentioned the writing prompts from here. I signed up and decided to get started.

I still don't have time to do them weekly but I save the email into my blogging folder so that when I get the time I can sit down and do one.

This one was sent around Thanksgiving time but that was an incredibly hectic week for us and I'm just now getting to it.

So here we go..."I am thankful"

I am thankful for so many things and people. It's hard to realize just how lucky we are sometimes. That people would love to have some of the issues that we have simply because they may not have what we do. Problems finding tires? Well they wish they even had a car to worry about tires. My house is too warm and it makes my pregnant self cranky? Well there are people who cannot afford heat and would probably rather be too warm than freezing cold. I ate something that gave me heartburn all night, well someone would love to have heartburn just to say that they had a meal for the first time in who knows how long. So I am thankful for all those little things that I may not always think about everyday.

I am thankful for 3 wonderful boys who make me laugh, who make me irritated, who remind me everyday to be thankful for children because some people can't have them.

I am thankful for my family who is so supportive and caring.

Mostly I am thankful for Jake. He works SO hard for his family. He picks up overtime whenever he can even if it means even less sleep. He goes to work on only 3, yes THREE hours of sleep because he chose to stay up and spend time with his family. This week that I worked all day for two days, I came home to a cleaned up kitchen and dinner made. He looks out for my family when they need things like tires. He has found me wheels and tires for my car. He does car maintenance and lets me know when we need to do things. He is so dedicated to anything he sets his mind to. He is incredibly patient. Sometimes these kids make me want to pull my hair out and he seems to breeze through it. Trust me sometimes those tables are reversed but this pregnancy has left me with no patience. He steps up to the plate for anything. He is the best daddy, he is constantly making the kids laugh, snuggling them, playing games with them, reading to them, making sure they have what they need and more. He listens to me vent and complain when I'm frustrated and never tells me to shut up and get over it. I could go on and on. I am just so thankful to have him by my side, raising our handsome boys and impatiently waiting to meet our little girl.

I hope he knows just how much I appreciate him. Sometimes I don't have the best way of showing it, but when I fail that way I try to tell him. I don't do it enough, but I hope that what amount I do he feels that I am sincere.

Sunday, December 2, 2012

Little things you love

You are such a stinking character Emery. Every single day with you makes me so happy.

Recently you love hugging the fire hydrant when we walk outside and you say "quish".
We always say "squish" when we give you hugs or you say "squish" when you give us one and you squeeze us tight. I guess you like to hug the fire hydrant too. Whatever makes you happy kiddo!

You LOVE the snow. You had a complete meltdown about putting on your snow pants, winter jacket and gloves. Screaming fit. Then once you got outside you had a blast. Picking up big snow chunks and throwing it around. You didn't want to come back inside and cried as we carried you upstairs. I'm glad you're a snow bunny. I can't wait to see you sledding for the first time.

You love to say "wheeeee!" when daddy goes around a corner or we go down a hill. I guarantee you'll be yelling it as you go sledding down a hill with daddy.

You have picked up on manners. You say please when you want something, thank you once you've been given it and then you say "welcome" after we say it. You actually don't say thank you, you say "thanks!"

Go-ging is "going". You love to shut the tv off when it's time to leave and go somewhere.

Gango is how you say in our durango.

You call blankets "blanks".

When you get all super crazy over tires on the computer daddy tells you to "chill out". You started repeating it. Except when you say it you sound like the chinese man off the movie The Hangover. You say "chee ow". Cutest thing ever and cracks me up. I don't remember what I was getting upset about the other day but out of nowhere you just say "chee ow". I definitely needed that reminder and the laugh definitely made me decompress. I keep trying to get it on video so I never forget how hilarious you are when you say it.

I also have the worse baby brain going on and need to make a note of everything I don't want to forget because I literally cannot remember it 5 minutes later.

Lately you've loved playing with your big lego's. You load them up in your vehicles and drive them all over the house. Especially the school bus. I think it's a little people school bus and you run so fast through the house with that bus that all we hear is a high pitched squeak. You literally are going to drive the wheels right off that noisy little bus.

You still are obsessed with apples. If we drive by them in the store you freak out.

You love to "keen". Just tonight I kept telling you to get out of the kitchen and you would. Then it'd get quiet and I'd have to tell you again. I should learn the first time! You then come walking out with a huge rope of Lysol wipes. You pulled out every single wipe to help clean. I then had to confiscate them and stuff them all back in the container. I am so glad you want to help and clean things but that is not how we go about it lol.

I will have to finish this up later as you just pooped, I know this because you stink horrendously and you love to announce it immediately after the fact but still refuse to use the big boy potty. You're such a handful and I love you...and your stinky butt!

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Week by week: 22

How far along:22 weeks
How big is baby:bigger than this states
Total weight gain:still not sure, I don't get on the scale at home.
Maternity clothes: yup
Sleep:Pretty good
Best moment these weeks: Feeling my little one move around.
Gender: GIRL!!!
Craving: nothing lately
Movement:lots in the morning and at bedtime
Labor Signs: None and it better stay that way for another 21 weeks.
Belly Button in or out: still an innie.
Stretch marks: nothing new
What I miss:sleeping on my back
What I am looking forward to:seeing her precious face

Thursday, November 22, 2012

Week by week: 21

How far along:21 weeks
How big is baby: I'm sure she is over a foot long considering she was 11 inches at our 18W4D ultrasound
Total weight gain:I am hoping still just a pound a week.
Maternity clothes: yup
Best moment these weeks:Nothing too major.
Gender: GIRL!!!
Craving: Sweets! That won't help with gaining just a pound a week ;)
Movement: Surprising me with some really strong jabs and kicks. Takes my breath away almost. I'm scared for the future kicks and jabs
Labor Signs: None!
Belly Button in or out: still an innie.
Stretch marks: if they'd just disappear that'd be great!
What I miss: sleeping however I want, being able to breathe and not being so emotional.
What I am looking forward to: making our swaddler blankets. I'm going to out do Aden and Anais :)

Thursday, November 15, 2012

Week by week: 20

How far along:20 weeks
How big is baby:bigger than a banana that's for sure
Total weight gain:averaging about a lb a week which is good but I wish it could be less.
Maternity clothes: yup
Sleep: did alright though I had to share a bed with my sister and Emery part of a night and then with my sister the next two nights while we were in MT. So weird to not be sleeping next to my personal space heater :)
Best moment these weeks:Seeing my family, seeing my littlest sister meet Emery for the first time.
Gender: GIRL!!!
Craving: I can't remember what I was craving.
Movement:Oh yea, crazy girl in there. Daddy finally felt her for the first time this week.
Labor Signs: None thankfully.
Belly Button in or out: still an innie.
Stretch marks: 
What I miss: sleeping on my back!
What I am looking forward to: getting girly clothes and making hair bows!

Wordless Wednesday

Thursday, November 8, 2012


Watching: I'm currently super into a few shows, the first being Revenge. I'm also loving Nashville so, so much...Deacon's niece, LOVE her voice! I'm also into Covert Affairs. So crazy to see the chick from Coyote Ugly years ago to be a decent actress. Jake and I watch Survivor and Rehab with Dr. Drew, also we found "underemployed" and watch that when there is nothing else on.

Listening to: bonus features on The Lorax and boys brushing their teeth and getting ready for bed...and arguing that it is/isn't "opposite day". These two are ridiculous!

Planning: just our trip to Montana to see my family.

Thinking about: the alarming sentence Nathan wrote on his homework. I just hope something good comes of this for him!

Looking forward to: this weekend! Can't wait to see my family. It's been a little over two years since we were last there.

Reading: My mommy blogs. Haven't had time or the desire *gasp* to read a book.

Making me happy: Jake being such a good daddy, growing a healthy active baby in my tummy, a precious and crazy little Emery parroting EVERYTHING he can manage to repeat and making us laugh constantly, mini kit-kats, having the boys back home even if it's only for a few days.

So, how about you? What are you up to today? Feel free to do your own "currently" post on your blog and link back in the comments for everyone to check out.

a little reminder

I look at Emery and he is growing so fast. His little chubby face has thinned out into a little boys, his once velvety bald head has long blonde wispy hair that makes him look like a dandelion and an attitude like nobody's business.

I love this stage, watching him learn, say new words, discover how things work. Just in complete awe of the world but at the same time my heart breaks that he is less of my baby.

I look at him sometimes and just squeeze him in a hug knowing that my baby who is still part baby, is going to be a big brother in a few short months. Though he will always be my baby, he will technically no longer be the baby.

He loves his daddy SO incredibly much. He shouts for joy when daddy gets home from work, when he wakes up and sees daddy, the snuggles and all the goofy boy games daddy plays with him just makes him fall more and more in love with daddy. Sometimes I feel so unneeded unless he is hurt and he runs to mommy for loves.

Last night however the cries started. Not his usual fussy-uncomfortable-in-the-middle-of-the-night cries, but a hard hurt crying. I get up and comfort him and he curls his little body into mine, tucks his perfect soft face against my neck and I hear his little sobs fade into deep sleepy sounds as his breaths make my neck warm. I'm mama and he needs me still even if he is a big boy now.

He told me he was ready for nigh' night and I laid him back down on his pillow and covered him up after I smooched on his soft little cheeks and told him how much I loved him.

We went through this 4 more times. I think maybe he had a tummy ache but he just was having a hard time sleeping . I finally brought him into bed with me and let him sleep on daddy's side. He had his own little pillow and I separated little sister in my belly from his feet with daddy's pillow. I was a little worried he might fall off but he just laid there calmly, rolled towards me, asked for a hug, puckered his little lips for a kiss and gave me his hand. He grabbed onto my finger just like when he was a brand new infant and didn't let go even after his hug and kiss good night. He just held my hand, taking comfort in knowing that mama was there and he could sleep tight. He blissfully fell into slumber. For that moment, he was my little baby and not so much my little boy and my heart was overwhelmed. I needed that little reminder more than either of us will ever know.

I sit here watching him keep reach over to give Ethan hug after hug after hug and knowing that he is going to be a wonderful big brother. Even if he is still my baby and half big boy, he is going to embrace the role and make me so proud of the little big boy he is becoming.

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Week by week: 19

How far along: 19w6d
How big is baby: The size of a mango
Total weight gain: about 5 lbs. Looks like i'm averaging a pound a week now. Yeek :/
Maternity clothes: yup
Sleep: Pretty good. 10-12 hours.
Best moment these weeks: The boys' comments about a baby sister, pointing out things they want for her room or to make her. Ethan asking "what time is the baby coming out of Kayla's stomach?" and we talked about my belly growing really big like it did with Emery when he was in my tummy. Ethan looks very serious and says "you have to be reallllly careful with her." Makes me happy to see them show interest when last week during the gender reveal they could have cared less :)
Gender: GIRL!!!
Craving: I told Jake yesterday "I want spaghetti and I want it NOW."
Movement: Quite a bit, she's very active. Past two midwife appts she has made them work to get a fetal heart rate. I'm terrified lol
Labor Signs: None and it better stay that way for another 21 weeks.
Belly Button in or out: still and innie.
Stretch marks: Nothing new.
What I miss: Sleeping on my back and my belly...and not being able to have a margarita. I just want a freaking margarita!
What I am looking forward to: My fabric coming so i can make swaddle blankets and our trip to Montana to see family. My mom spoils these boys like no other!
Milestones: Nothing major.

Friday, November 2, 2012

Update on Baby #2

First off the ultrasound tech was amazing! She was very knowledgeable and explained what she was looking at and for. I love learning new things so I was asking questions too. I feel disappointed we didn't get all the good details with Emery like we did with this baby, this lady was friendly and the ultrasound tech who did Emery's was kind of a *insert not nice word* The ultrasound tech said that baby is 11" from all the measurements they took. I found this interesting that they could figure this out! Baby is also in the 95th percentile for size. Jake immediately goes "yup, another boy."

The tech asks if we want to know and we say yes. We have three boys at home so we need to know what we may or may not need. She then smiles and says "so you're not used to seeing these parts, these are girl parts." My heart seriously felt like it had turned into fireworks. I just said "yay" and got entirely too emotional. I wish I could have been looking at Jake at that moment instead of the screen. He just plays everything off. Me reading to him about what baby is doing this week and what's developing? No interest it seems. Find out the gender? Seems like no interest. I know it's there just masked. He becomes daddy when that baby is finally here and he snuggles, he smooches, he constantly takes pictures, changes diapers. Best daddy ever when baby is finally here. Up until then he's borderline bored!

It'll be interesting to see how big our Little Miss is. If she will be average size like Brudder Emery or a little chunka-chunk. I can't wait to meet her.

It was weird up until that point, my head was thinking "girl". When I thought of the baby and all the planning I somehow just always thought of it as a girl. I had two girl dreams. With Emery I only had the merman dream and I just KNEW he was going to be a boy. I thought "well, 50% chance of a boy again so I'm not dwelling on a girl in case it's a boy." I was more than happy with either. Emery is the most amazing little boy to me and I'd be just fine with another him so I didn't want to dwell on girl and then feel disappointed for a boy when I know in my heart it wouldn't be a disappointment.

In the video I was so surprised Nathan said he wanted a boy. With Emery he really wanted a little sister. After they found out girl, they just ran off to go play, didn't care about a new baby. It's funny to see how Nathan shows his excitement. These past few days after he gets up in the morning and says things like "so a girl, 3 boys and a girl." "A little sister, she will have 3 big brothers." Just random little thoughts of his that he says out loud but it means a lot to know he is thinking of her, expecting her and possibly excited. It's a whole new world to him as he's got 2 little brothers. Makes my heart happy because he is a wonderful loving brother to these little babies.

I think she will round out the family perfectly. Three big brothers to watch over her. She will get to play with Lego's and Hot Wheels and still have all her girly stuff. I'm just ITCHING to start making baby doll and barbie clothes and she's not even here nor will she care about that for a couple years.

Now the question is, will she be a bright blonde with gorgeous blue eyes like Emery? The little German side showing bright and true, or will she have the thick dark hair and bright eyes like she had in my dream? Only time will tell.

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Week by week: 18

How far along: 18w4d
How big is baby: The size of a sweet potato. The ultrasound tech said baby is 11oz and in the 95th percentile for size. We got a chubster on the way! :D
Total weight gain: No scale at home so only know after monthly appts.
Maternity clothes: pants with built in belly band and a couple maternity tanks with a pre-pregnancy cardigan
Sleep: Pretty good. 10-12 hours.
Best moment these weeks: Emery saying baby and pointing to the baby on the ultrasound screen, finding out the gender and being able to start our registry. Knowing baby is perfect and all parts are there. Thank you body for growing my perfect babies!
Gender: Secret until tomorrow when we tell the boys first. Hopefully will get a video and can post it.
Craving: Nothing this week.
Movement: Mostly when lying on my left side. I guess baby is head down and facing my left side. Hands in front face so movement is little boxer jabs and knees/feet.
Labor Signs: None and it better stay that way for another 22 weeks.
Belly Button in or out: in and most likely will stay that way. I'd be grossed out if I had an outtie. My belly button is so sensitive.
Stretch marks: Nothing new.
What I miss: Sleeping on my back if I want.
What I am looking forward to: Making muslin swaddle blankets, a soft fuzzy blanket and shopping for things.
Milestones: Nothing major.

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Week by week: 17

How far along: 17w5d
How big is baby: the size of an avocado
Total weight gain: No scale at home so only know after monthly appts.
Maternity clothes: pants with built in belly band and a couple maternity tanks with a pre-pregnancy cardigan
Sleep: Pretty good. 10-12 hours.
Best moment these weeks: nothing pregnancy related but loving all the extra willing hugs and kisses from Emery.
Gender: unknown for one more week.
Craving: homemade taco shells which I gave into.
Movement: Still just little popcorn pops here and there when I'm sitting still or laying in bed.
Labor Signs: None and it better stay that way for another 23 weeks.
Belly Button in or out: in
Stretch marks: Looks like some are showing up on the boobs. BOO!
What I miss: Sleeping on my back if I want.
What I am looking forward to: finding out the gender and making our baby registry with our very small list.
Milestones: Not losing my mind an patience with Emery's naughty little streak.

Thursday, October 18, 2012

Dentist Appointment

Both kids cavity free!

However Ethan has white spots on his teeth from acid softening the enamel. What can we expect when his moms teeth are half rotted, she refuses to get their fluoride prescriptions, doesn't make them brush their teeth and they all live off juice and sugar?! Still too entirely frustrating. I wish she knew the importance of good hygiene especially dental. Dental care is NOT cheap and some day these boys won't be covered by her state insurance or Jake's great insurance.

All we can do is continue to make them brush regularly, take their crunchies every night, avoid juice, no soda or junk food and hope for the best. Maybe someday she will wake up but quite doubtful.

Ethan had xrays done and must have complied well because not once did they have to call for us. No word on the pictures so they must have looked alright.

As for Emery he was a peach. He behaved, showed the dentist how he brushes and charmed everyone in the place. The doctor herself said she was going to steal him for herself. I told her she would have to fight us for him.

Though with his naughty attitude lately is willingly hand him over for an hour to regain my sanity.

Nathan's appointment is next week so we will see if he's worse off or cavity free. Fingers crossed!

No pictures since cameras, phones and video devices aren't allowed in the back :( only picture was of Ethan's tooth with his name for being cavity free.

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Week by week: 16

How far along: 16w4d
How big is baby: the size of an avocado
Total weight gain: staying even.
Maternity clothes: Nope, my yoga pants, tank tops are saved with a belly band. Have bought a few things though.
Sleep: Pretty good. about 12 hours with the exception of the few nights here and there where I wake up for an hour or two in the middle of the night and am unable to go to sleep.
Best moment these weeks: No morning sickness! Woohoo!
Gender: unknown
Craving: Nothing really these past few weeks.
Movement: Little popcorn pops here and there when I'm sitting still or laying in bed.
Labor Signs: None and it better stay that way for another 24 weeks.
Belly Button in or out: in
Stretch marks: Just the few from Emery, nothing new but I know they'll come this time.
What I miss: Not being emotional. My abs not feeling like they're going to rip open with every cough or sneeze.
What I am looking forward to: finding out the gender. Getting moved into the bigger place.
Milestones: Made it through the 1st trimester without dying of morning sickness and battling my first horrible cold. I thank the vitamin D!

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

15W5D appt

Today was another baby appt. Let me start off saying I am NOT a fan of Deaconess Hospitall. The layout is whack, the parking SUCKS, the nurse was NOT personable and looked like she had rolled out of bed and came to work. No makeup, messy gross hair in a ratty pony tail, wrinkly scrubs and a gray hoody. She did not look the part at all.

Moving on for a moment.

Baby was a brat about us hearing him/her. Literally took 5+ minutes to get a good listen. At one point baby kicked the doppler and moved away. Finally got a reading of 150. I was thinking ohhh, Emery was at 140 by now but after reading back through past posts he was 150's. So as much as we want a girl it seems we will probably end up with another boy.Don't get me wrong I LOVE LOVE LOVE my Emery and am more than happy for another boy like him or even half as crazy fun as he is.

The rest of the appt was waiting for her to write me a referral for chiropractic care because her script pad was in the safe?! Then they had no scheduling lady. I'm standing there waiting for someone to notice us and hoping they HURRY the heck up because I'm already going to be late for my chiropractor appointment. Someone finally says that the scheduler isn't there and to go to the doctor's side for scheduling. The chick at the front desk can turn in my ultrasound referral but doesn't have scheduling software but will walk me over. I tell her to forget it I'll call because I'm already going to be late for my next appointment.

At least I got my referral and am hoping that my insurance will cover chiropractic care since it's a referral since no medicine will help with the migraines and my back is majorly messed up.

Thankfully the chiropractor said my 1/2" shorter right leg isn't that way anatomically because after my hips being adjusted I was right on. Whew! I didn't want a lift in my shoe like my mom has to have.

I got a groupon for 5 chiropractic visits the other day for $49.00. Hopefully I can supplement the $45.00 visits in between those ones and stretch it out through out my pregnancy. The chiropractor told me that adjustments can help shorten labor time by up to 60%. He was appalled that I was in labor for 24 hours and is certain that this one will be less if I am adjusted regularly. If I can manage once or twice a month I'll be happy. I know I can't afford it weekly. If I can manage a labor naturally and for as long as possible at home in under 12 hours I will be a happy mama.

On a final note, we have three weeks until our gender ultrasound. I was hoping for 18 weeks which would put us 2 weeks from now, but no. She referred me 3-4 weeks from today. I guess the countdown begins!

Saturday, May 12, 2012

Being a grown up..

A weird thing happened tonight. I was going through people that Facebook told me I might know and looking at their photos and I thought how I am in a completely different place than so many people I feel.
It is so weird to run across people who I went to school with, beauty school with, mutual friends etc and see how they party, they travel, they do whatever they want. It's the weirdest thing but if I for a split second picture myself where they are I get this fleeting moment of panic, anxiety and a weird stomach flop. Emery is my WORLD, I cannot picture myself anywhere but being his mama. I have literally NO idea where I would be or what I would be doing if I wasn't a mother. All I know is that NOTHING I could be doing would ever make me as happy as I am now. Emery is my other little half and he has completed my world. I guess this is what being grown up is...and my God I would not change this for ANYTHING!
 Not a single material thing could be worth more to me than his laugh and huge smile as he gets pushed in a swing, his little feeling finger as he investigates something new, his "side eyes" and batting his eyelashes when he gets caught doing something I don't approve and he thinks that will make me laugh and he won't be busted, watching him push cars around the room, demanding more nanananana,  his fearlessness, the way he just lights up when he sees me, his daddy or his brothers. His love for Ollie and how he tries to pull him out of the crib by his leg and drag him throughout the house, his OBSESSION with tires, how he tries to fix things with his daddy, how proud he is of himself every time he drinks from a straw. I could go on and on but for some reason this entire thought just has me so emotional.
There is nothing, absolutely nothing that could top being a mama.

Friday, May 4, 2012


A local kids magazine was asking for photos of mommy's with their kiddos. I had no idea it was for a Mother's Day thing. They just said they wanted photos for their magazine. So I entered our photo little man....and apparently they picked winners or something. We were a runner up and got a $50.00 Gift Certificate! I won't get too excited until we actually get the card! But check it out here! I'm including the photo here in case someday when you look back on this the link doesn't work to the actual page.

Our Winning Photo

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

one cure for the tantrums

Children are such an experiment. I finally figured out the key to these tantrums is 10-30 minutes in mama's bed. We snuggle, read a book, he pokes my nose over and over and laughs mischievously, he pokes my belly button and then makes me poke his, he gives me 53 heart attacks worrying about him falling off the bed while crawling all over me, he sprawls out on the poofy blankets and points to things around the room, he leans over for me to give him lots of smooches, he hugs the pillow, plays peek a boo and snuggles some more. Then when we get up his attitude is better or he at least snuggles into mama and sits there for another 20 minutes. Apparently mama's COMPLETE & UNDIVIDED attention is what the stink needs....(secretly, I need just as much if not more than he does :))

A letter from a mother...

I saw this on Facebook and thought it was so sweet. As a mother you must have patience and we can hope that someday our children will have the same patience for us.

I'm holding out for the new system of things but in case I don't get there in my lifetime I hope Emery is patient with me...

Letter from a Mother to a Daughter: "My dear girl, the day you see I’m getting old, I ask you to please be patient, but most of all, try to understand what I’m going through. If when we talk, I repeat the same thing a thousand times, don’t interrupt to say: “You said the same thing a minute ago”... Just listen, please. Try to remember the times when you were little and I would read the same story night after night until you would fall asleep. When I don’t want to take a bath, don’t be mad and don’t embarrass me. Remember when I had to run after you making excuses and trying to get you to take a shower when you were just a girl? When you see how ignorant I am when it comes to new technology, give me the time to learn and don’t look at me that way... remember, honey, I patiently taught you how to do many things like eating appropriately, getting dressed, combing your hair and dealing with life’s issues every day... the day you see I’m getting old, I ask you to please be patient, but most of all, try to understand what I’m going through. If I occasionally lose track of what we’re talking about, give me the time to remember, and if I can’t, don’t be nervous, impatient or arrogant. Just know in your heart that the most important thing for me is to be with you. And when my old, tired legs don’t let me move as quickly as before, give me your hand the same way that I offered mine to you when you first walked. When those days come, don’t feel sad... just be with me, and understand me while I get to the end of my life with love. I’ll cherish and thank you for the gift of time and joy we shared. With a big smile and the huge love I’ve always had for you, I just want to say, I love you... my darling daughter. "

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Updates on the Emery boy and a few pictures :)

I can't believe that Saturday you are going to be a year old. Where has the time gone?!

I have a whole list of things on my desk top to write about and pictures to post but where do I find the time?! I feel like I am failing with this blog. It was meant to document everything so you could look back and I'm lucky to get a post in every couple months. When you nap I try to get work stuff done or relax. When you go to your dad's house I try to get that done or I end up over there with you guys to play and go on adventures and spend time with your brudders.

You are growing so fast and again I'm so amazed by you.

You can sign the following: please, more, milk, bird, eat, bye, all gone.

You say: "over there" "what's this" "ooh dat" which your daddy and I think is your version of "ohh what's that" "yes" "yeah", "mama" "dadda" "hi" "uh oh"

I never would have thought that your first real words would be "over there". Yea said "mama" "dadda" "hi" but to hear "over there" plain as day just rocked my world. You are so intelligent. You pick up on so much stuff, so quickly.

Every time you pick up on a sign I'm scrambling to teach you another.

Some things you do that crack me up are: crawling over to a toy, an orange, whatever is on the floor, doing a push up and biting it and crawling around with it clenched in your mouth.

You got into the huge thing of flour and got the lid off and had a hey day with it.

You LOVE nilla wafers and can't eat them fast enough. You demand to have one in each hand and one in your mouth.
PLEASE don't take my nilla wafers!

You are OBSESSED with oranges. You would eat an entire box/bag of little Cutie Oranges in 2 days if I let you. You try to eat 4 or 5 in a sitting but I cut you off at 2 or 3. You can peel them yourself but you also try to eat the rind so I usually just do it.

 Favorite Fruit.

You grab my face between your little hands and pull my head down and give me kisses or you put your forehead against mine and look in my eyes. Talk about melting my heart!!!!

You love to blow on your food. You pucker up your little lips just perfect and blow. Sometimes I feel a little breeze and look over and you'll be blowing on your food, even if it's not something to blow your crackers with spinach and artichoke dip.

You love lemons, grapefruits, green olives, pickles, anything sour or bitter doesn't even phase you.

I said "uh-oh" a couple times and you caught right on. Now you throw your food off the tray to hear the "plop" on the floor and then say "uh oh". I have to keep myself from laughing because it's not a very nice habit to have and we're trying to break that.

On March 29, 2012 you pooped in the tub for the first time. You were crouched and starting a grunt sound and I thought you were trying to pull yourself up. Nope! Little ping pong type poop comes floating out by your leg. I said "ewww" and called for Grandma Neen. She came and got you dressed so I could clean out the tub.

Meeting Ollie for the first time

You LOVE your Ollie the Elephant that Grandma Neen got for you. If I brush your hair then you have to take the brush and try to brush him. You carry him around or give him to me for loves, you'll give him kisses and lay your head down on him like he is a little pillow. 
brushing Ollie's hair


On April 1st you said "over there" for the first time. I got you out of bed when you woke up and brought you into my bed to drink your milk and snuggle for a bit. You pointed to something in the kitchen and said "over there". At first I thought I was just hearing that because I wanted to hear you say something like that. Later that day we went to visit your daddy and I asked you where daddy was. You pointed to him and said "over there". He heard it and so I was reassured that I hadn't lost my mind and you are an intelligent little boy. You told daddy "over there" when he asked where mama was.

You just adore your brothers. You share a room with them now at your daddy's and you have to be beside them playing with whatever they are playing on. Nathan just loves that you lift your arms up for him and he will pick you up. I think you make him feel very special and he just loves that. Hearing you laugh while you play with them just makes my heart swell.
You are such a loving boy. I am so happy that you are mine. You are healthy for the most part, so funny, demanding and charismatic. You attract attention wherever we go. People stop to touch you, make you smile, make you laugh, compliment your blue eyes or cheesy smile. You make them smile and laugh and touch your hands. You act all shy and then look at them and give them a big cheesy smile. I am so glad that you are such a well behaved and mild tempered boy, with the exception of your HUGE attitude over food. 
I love you so much little man!

Monday, April 9, 2012

Growing so fast

My little baby is not so little at all anymore. I swear we just brought him home a couple weeks ago...

Now at 10 1/2 months old he is riding four wheelers. I was just amazed watching him sit on it and stay. He was using his feet to push himself backwards and rock it back and forth. He sat there for over 30 minutes playing on it. Am I just crazy thinking that most 10 months old wouldn't do this or would they?

You got bored with the four wheeler, or maybe it wasn't boredom you just wanted brother's bike. You just kept pointing and making your "I want" sound. So grandma put you on brother's bike.

It won't be too long before mama is having to buy you your own bike. You just loved watching Ethan race around on his. He and papa went all the way down the sidewalk and around the corner and you didn't take your eyes off them. You just kept watching for them to go back. AS SOON as they turned back around that corner your little hand flew up and pointed to them. You have some good eye sight my little man.

I'm in awe watching you everyday. I have to try not to cry because you are growing so incredibly fast but laugh at how smart you are. You are becoming such a little boy and no longer a baby. I watch you pick up your piece of banana and I notice how you don't have such chubby baby hands anymore. Your little fingers are getting longer and thinner, your palm is less pudgy. You have so much dexterity.

You fall and bonk your noggin a lot and cry for a minute, take your binky and the fit is over and off you go again. You're so determined and we're currently having to learn who the boss is. You think you get to direct the show but in all reality mama does. I say NO Emery and you just look at me, give me the cheesy smile where you smile realllllly big and wrinkle up your nose and go back to doing what you're doing. I think this is the only part of motherhood that really makes me feel exhausted. The constant NO and removing you from the situation or patting your little hand. You will go back time after time after time. I move you away and you crawl right back. You're learning to push your boundaries but at the same time I think it's just your curiosity. You are so much like me when it comes to inspecting things, touching things, watching people. You are a very observant boy.

This is what I'm always having to tell you NO Emery about. You are always pulling up the drawers on the filing cabinet. I don't want you to rip all my organized files out like you do in your dresser with your clothes...and you always squish your fingers in the drawer of the cabinet or your dresser. But you still go back time after time. DETERMINATION lol. You're going to be the child who learns the hard way.