Saturday, November 27, 2010

My Slice of Heaven + 20W6D

My favorite body wash is Johnson and Johnson Lavender and Chamomile "Melt Away Stress". 

I used to get it at Walmart and suddenly I couldn't find it anymore. Target didn't have it either. I went into panic mode thinking it was discontinued. The stuff is soooo heavenly. Last night after my bath I realized "OMFG I'm officially out of the best stuff on earth and I can't find it anywhere." *cue frantic online searching* Thankfully it's still in production just not sold at Walmart or Target for some reason. I almost ordered it online for $6.49 when I decided I'd check Walgreens.com. 2 for $8.98. HECK YES! 

So this morning we run off to Motherhood Maternity to get me a belly band. It seems too stretchy, my sisters seems to be more of a thick stretchy fabric where as mine is Lycra or something thin and stretchy. I may have to check out Target's to see how theirs feels. After that we found daddy a beanie for work so his head and ears aren't being frostbitten in this cold weather when he has road calls and has to go fix a bus. Then we finally went to Walgreen's and I purchased my slice of heaven in a bottle. I highly suggest you all try it. It's not overwhelming at all and makes you want to stay in the bath forever. I'm off to a bath now and I'm going to splurge and go for extra bubbles just because I have a 2nd back up bottle. Whoop!

Baby Bump at 20W6D (with belly band) don't mind the back fat haha.




Friday, November 26, 2010

Prenatal Pilates

Whew boy. My abs are tender. I overall enjoyed the workout and apparently Emery does as well. He's kicking away in there. I'm only 20 weeks along and already some of his jabs are taking my breath away. Last night he got a few "oh!'s" out of me.

The work outs are pretty fast paced. She almost added too many moves into one on a couple of them. I couldn't keep up on those 2 so I did what I could of them. I don't want to overdo it the first time. 20 minutes was up when it only seemed like 5. I like that they're 10 minutes each so they keep you engaged without getting bored.

I tried the Standing Pilates and they need dumbbells but since I don't have any I just used two cans of corn. HAHA. Tomorrow I need to get a belly band so I'll just pick up the weights while we are out. I also did the core Pilates and those were pretty good. Definitely works on your belly muscles.

I only am doing the 2 sets tonight so I'm not overdoing it plus I've been fighting a headache all day and I don't want too much blood pressure turning it into a migraine...and I really want a bubble bath and to read on my Hypnobirthing book. I'm off to my bath now.

P.S. When did your significant other start being able to feel the baby kick from the outside? I SWEAR I felt him kick when I pressed in with my hand. It was much stronger than when I can feel my pulse if I press in. Jake is getting anxious to feel the baby and with as hard as he's goofing off in there I figure it should be sometime shortly. *fingers crossed*

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Thankful...

And so it begins again. Every year I have things to be thankful for. Usually they're all the same but this year I was blessed with 3 amazing boys who have turned my life into so much more.

-I am so thankful that Jake walked into my life. That we've worked through all our little tiny issues and that he's so supportive and understanding. 
-I'm so thankful for the boys as they've taught me love and patience, the kind you never have until there are kids in your life.
-I'm so thankful that despite being told I'd never have babies that my body worked against them and I'm housing a rambunctious and healthy little thing in my body.
-I'm so thankful that my family adores Jake and is so supportive. I in return adore his family and am thankful for all their support and understanding.
-I'm thankful that I have a job even though most days I absolutely cannot stand it. I'm lucky to have a job in this economy and one who has been understanding of the pregnancy and willing to work with me on appointments.

There's so much more to be thankful for such as housing and health etc that I don't even need to mention those.

In case I've missed something or you have something to share. Please feel free :)

I hope everyone has a wonderful day tomorrow with family. Laugh your hearts out, enjoy your time with loved ones, leave with full bellies, take too many pictures and be grateful for all the little things, not everyone is as lucky as we are. Not everyone has a warm loving home or even knows what a full tummy is. We all have our differences and hardships but we could all be so much worse off so enjoy and be thankful.


Tuesday, November 23, 2010

20W3D

I'm officially halfway there. 3 Days ago anyway. Not a lot has been happening around here. Just laying low with the boys while they were here. 

We have a ton of snow dumped on us so I'm staying in today since Jake went to work. I ordered some Bio Oil and some Palmer's Cocoa Butter. My belly itches but I'm sure its due to dry skin and weather. Either way I'm going to try to do this regularly just as some prevention. I also read that the amniotic fluid is replenished 3 times a day. I feel sooo guilty for not drinking all the water I need to be so I've been trying really hard to make sure I'm drinking enough. That way baby is being cared for, my chapped lips and headaches go away and hopefully help hold off stretch marks for awhile.

Emery has been a complete turkey lately. I've felt him all over which is exciting. Last night I had a bite size snickers and he was going crazy after that! I always wonder what he's doing in there and how he's laying and such. I've gotten to the point where I lay in bed in the morning and wonder what he's gonna look like and how he is going to act. I mostly can't wait to just touch all his little toes and his little fingers with dimples and his adorable little ears. Ohhh how I love babies, its so much more intense when its your own though.

I've made progress on his quilt. It's not perfect but I think its cute. I only have about 3 more rows to sew together and then hopefully tomorrow Jake and I are going to work on the borders. The cream squares are a thin fabric so we decided to get a really thin layer of fill to put in between the layers. I can't wait to bring him home all bundled up in it.

No luck on finding any owl theme bedding. The one I wanted is $360. Uhhh no way. I tried Amazon and couldn't find it for any less than $250.00. Maybe I'll get just the sheets and get some plain colored bumpers. We have so many expenses that are coming up that I'm not really worried about a bedding set. I don't want to spend a fortune so I may just put some pieces together and call it good.

Friday, November 19, 2010

YMCA

Yesterday Jake signed up himself and the boys at the YMCA. I already had a membership and was paying for it every month but never going because I'm either working or I want the quality time with the boys. Now that winter is here our outdoor activities are severely limited. We can only do so many crafts and I need to the exercise being pregnant. I don't want to gain too much, as I've already spent 3 weeks nibbling on Halloween candy and my pecan pie. After the pie is gone I'm back to making sure I just eat healthy stuff. I don't want a huge baby and I don't want to develop gestational diabetes.

So today we got Ethan, ate breakfast and headed off to the Y. We played around in the shallow area for a LONG time. He was having a good day because he started off with me. He trusts me enough to jump right at me and know that I'll catch him. We did that over and over and floated around. Every time Jake or I would float he'd rush over and pull our heads out of the water. "I help you." We were quite impressed that he knows what needs to be done. He biffed it a few times and went under. The first time he really panicked and started crying. I told him to just wipe his eyes, it's just like bath time and its just water. He seemed like he was going to be scared to get back in so I told him to watch and I went under the water. He laughed and realized it wasn't so bad. By the third time he went under he didn't fuss at all. He came up looking shocked but just shook it off and continued on. He's such a smart little thing. Hopefully after a few more trips to the pool he'll really be confident and try floating around with us. Nathan will be ecstatic to go on Sunday. The kid is like I am, he LOVES water. He's going to be excited that he doesn't have to wear a life jacket though he's going to be really bummed that he can't use the hot tub. You have to be 15+. Jake and I went in and we let Ethan sit on the side and just put his feet in, not even his legs just his feet and the lifeguard came rushing over and told us that's not allowed. Man, a 2.5 year old just may die of heat exhaustion from his feet being in a hot tub for the 5 minutes I'm allowed. Whatever though, I'm sure he was just doing his job so we just got back in the pool.

I then spent 5 minutes in the hot tub as my doctor gave the ok on 5 minutes. It was sooo nice to have the hard jets pulsing against my lower back and my feet. Ahhhhhh. I never wanted to get out.

I also got the first 'are you pregnant' today. Except he was probably 4 and phrased it 'is there a baby in your belly?' I told him yes and he asked 'why?' I explained he had to stay there and grow a little bigger and he informed me babies don't grow in tummies. They grow outside. As interesting as that may be I need Emery to stay inside for another 3 months and grow big in his swimming pool. Then he can go swimming with his brothers and mommy won't have a meltdown :)

Tomorrow I get to watch Jake's little nephew Gavin for a couple hours before work. He is the cutest little thing, I can't even wait. So its most definitely bed time for me. Somehow I stayed up until 11:30pm last night when I'm usually passed out before 9:30. I've been paying for it allllll day.

Thursday, November 18, 2010

The spoiling begins.

One day after we find out we're having a boy I'm already getting crafty. I've discovered this owl obsession. I love crafty unique things. Etsy is always a favorite play to look around and "ooh" and "ahh" over the things I'll never splurge on for myself. Unfortunately nothing that poked my creative side. However...

There was an adorable stuffed owl toy in one of the pregnancy magazines in the doctors office that inspired me. I got online and searched around for something similar to make and found this little guy. 


He came complete with a pattern. You can find him at oh-oh the owl

Today we went to Joann's Fabric and picked out fabrics. He also has felt for his eyes and feathers so we had to find that. We ended up with.... 


The paisley type print is going to be his front and the yellow will be for the back and bottom. He's going to have brown "hair" feathers. Green eyes with big black buttons that Jake picked out and brown, light brown and an orange feather on his chest. I think he's going to be pretty cute. I also want to find some lavender satchels or something that I can put inside him so he smells good and will be good for the baby to snuggle with when he gets older. I didn't quite realize how big the pattern really was so Emery won't be packing him around for quite a while. He's a good 14" or so inches tall I believe it said.


Secondly, I've always wanted to make a quilt. I love quilts and wish I had my own growing up. So I'm making the baby a quilt. I have to keep it simple for my first one but I'm so ready. I want the colors to somewhat match but I wanted different patterns to make it neater looking. My definition of neater being funkier not cleaner and precise. Jake and I looked for a good hour at fabrics I'm sure. I'm so glad he likes crafty stuff and always has ideas. (And he can get my sewing machine set up and everything) I gave up on trying to find an owl fabric and suddenly there he was with and it was PERFECT! So this is what we have....


The stripes are going to be the edging and the entire back piece. I'm going to alternate the owl's every other square. 

So Dark Brown, Owl, Light Brown, Owl, Dark Brown
Owl, Light Brown, Owl, Dark Brown, Owl
Light Brown, Owl, Dark Brown, Owl, Light Brown 
etc etc.

So the squares will moving down and to the left one piece. I think we decided the quilt is going to be 3' Wide by 4' Long. I hope it turns out alright. The whole point is it will be original and unique and mostly made with love. Hopefully it'll last a long time and can be passed down. 

Lastly....Daddy practicing with my sewing machine.


That's it for my crafty-ness as of right now. I'm exhausted. Probably because somehow Jake set his alarm for 7am instead of 8am and we never paid attention. We had no idea what time it was until we went to pick up the boys and she told Jake it was only 8 and he's not getting them until 9. BLAH. We are so tired and he has another hour and a half left of work. I'm gonna go waddle myself into my cozy bed and pass the heck out. Lucky me, poor him.



Epic Breakdown

Yesterday was so rough. I accepted it was a boy, I KNEW it was going to a boy. The tech told us a boy and that was that. I was just kind of in shock all day. I still can't get over the fact that there is this little mango sized baby in my belly, just flipping around content, sitting almost cross legged with a hand up by his face and the other kind of behind is back. Just the way daddy likes to sleep. I was so thankful that he was healthy as I've held my breath (but not for too long) before every appointment hoping that everything would be fine. I went into this thinking I couldn't have babies and suddenly here is this little tiny boy inside me. 

All day I was pretty fine with it. I was emotional all around. Jake had somehow gotten cranky that morning. I woke up just wanting him to be so excited that we would find out what our little baby was and instead he was cranky and storming around. I didn't know what I had done or why he was being that way and I just went into bed and cried. Then I called my mom and talked to her and my sister for awhile until I got less emotional. Then off to the doctor. After the appointment I had Jake with me and we went to lunch and ran a couple errands after the appointment. I was in my own little world. Then Jake went to work and I was reading blogs before I had to and crying. Was I disappointed? Was I really so selfish to be disappointed that I was having a boy instead of a girl and instead being thankful that I was having a baby at all, and so far a very healthy one?

I read this blog Nella Cordelia Birth Story and I BAWLED. I sobbed and sobbed till I almost couldn't breathe. I gathered myself as I had to go to work, my eyes all puffy and my nose sniffly. I made it through work without having a break down and got home. Jake and I were texting and he said he was wondering what our baby's hair would be like. I answered that I thought it would be dark like ours but in between my curly and his SUPER straight hair. He ended up saying something about how the baby would probably be just like him and I broke down. I started crying. I realized I wasn't disappointed that I wasn't having a girl but I was insecure. My baby wouldn't really have any of my features and he wouldn't be able to go get pedicures with me and all the girly stuff moms do with their daughters. Instead he'd be a boy and he'd be doing boy stuff with his dad and his brothers. I felt like I'd be missing out on so much. I grew up around only girls, sure I was a tom boy but I had little girl cousins and little sisters. How could I ever relate to a boy? How could I ever be on his level? Then I think of the boys and how they act out and I was scared ours would do that. Ethan only ever wants his daddy. I rarely get hugs or kisses anymore. I'm sure its because of their awful mom telling them things out of jealousy. I tried telling myself it's because they have a horrible "mom" who does nothing with them and they know of no discipline at her house. I KNOW that our baby will ALWAYS have a loving home with two loving parents and would never have to be that way. Jake reminded me that Ethan is so much better than he ever was and is better with me everyday. He reminded me of Monday night when we made tacos for dinner. Ethan ate so well by himself. We didn't have to remind him to take bites or drink less juice. He ate and ate. He ate so many tangerines slices that Jake peeled. Jake gets so busy that he forgets to eat his own dinner so when the boys wanted another tangerine I sat down to peel it. I have a citrus peeler from Tupperware and Ethan was waiting patiently standing beside me. I asked him if he'd like to help and he nodded and said yes. I pulled him up on my lap and explained the peeler and he helped me peel it. He was gobbling down the pieces just as quickly as I could get the seeds out and at one point he turned and gave me a kiss on the cheek. It was one of those little moments you don't forget. That was the reason I woke up smiling the next morning that the boys were there. I cried harder when I remembered this. Jake tried his best to listen to me through texts and have responses but I think he was at a loss. His boys always want him, he is their hero so he had no idea how I was feeling. I cried harder because I felt so guilty. I felt like everything was selfishness on my part and would my baby feel like it was unwanted? Did it feel like I was disappointed?

I got a good nights sleep and woke up feeling so much better today. I'm NOT disappointed I'm having a boy. I was just scared that I wouldn't be good enough. That I wouldn't be "daddy" and all they wanted like Ethan only wants daddy. I will be this little boys mommy. The woman who carried him in her womb for 9 months, the one who talked to her baby when she was alone, the one who prayed that he'd be safe and healthy every night. I will feed him and cherish every moment he's tucked into my side. I will be his role model, I'll kiss his boo boo's, I'll teach him his colors and numbers and alphabet. I'll teach how to be a gentleman and hold the doors open. I'll teach him manners and read him bedtime stories and kiss him in at night. I'll be the very best I can be to my little guy and where I may fall short his amazing daddy will be there to teach and love. I am so not disappointed to have a boy. I am so very blessed. I am so blessed to have 3 amazing guys in my life and the love of my life on his way into the world in a few short months. I know that when I hold him for the first time I'll fall even farther in love that I could have ever imagined. I can't wait to meet my little Emery Jacob.

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Daddy gave us "Y" - XY

What are little boys made of?
Snips and snails, and puppy dogs tails
That's what little boys are made of !

That's right. We're having a little boy. He was quite stubborn and quite the squirming little thing. He liked moving his legs around with his adorable little feet. He had one hand up by his face. His head is on my left side and he was laying on his tummy which made it difficult to see. We couldn't get a definite close of pic of his parts but the tech was pretty positive we have a little boy. Baby's heart rate was 149. Baby was measuring about 5 days ahead but wasn't enough for Sara to change my due date to April 5th so we're still planning for April 10th. He's just gonna be a tall boy like his daddy. I KNEW we'd have a boy even though I couldn't listen to my intuition because of so many different thoughts. Today has been FAR too emotional for me so I shall conclude this with pictures until I know that I'm not gonna start sobbing writing a post. 

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All I can hear is Ethan's little voice saying "penis" LMAO

Baby's Bear Claw :)

 
19W4D

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Oh. My. Gosh.

Can't. Stop. Sneezing.

All day I've been sneezing. ALL FREAKING DAY. I sneeze about 6 times between clients, twice while they're in my chair. Everyone's looking at me all crazy because I can't. stop. sneezing.

Here's to hoping I'll have a cold when I go into labor. Who needs pushing? I can just sneeze the baby out.

Friday, November 12, 2010

Oh P.S.

My sister is either having a c-section tomorrow or being induced.

Jake thinks he wins the bet because she is coming early. I told him he does not win because the doctors are making her have her because she's a big baby. If she wasn't such a chub then I'm sure Kassie would be having her right around her due date. 

Either way I can't wait to meet Miss Hadley. I'm sure she is going to be beautiful. I can't wait to get to Montana and visit her when she finally makes her arrival. Best thoughts to my sisser for an uncomplicated delivery and speedy recovery. I love you!

And in 4 days (in just a couple hours) we'll be finding out if Hadley will have a little girly cousin to play with or a boy to rough house with.

18W6D

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Told You So!

I woke up this morning prepared for our visit to a lawyer, Nathan's appointment afterwards and all the other running around we had to do. I also had to work 3-8. I noticed when I woke up that I had a missed call from a local number so I checked the voice mail and it was Urgent Care calling and to call them back. I call them back and they proceed to tell me that I have strep throat. I told the doctor it was that or a sinus infection. For some reason they didn't want to listen. I can usually be a trooper when it comes to getting sick and don't go to the doctor until I have to, but being pregnant the last thing I want is to be waiting out a week and passing any sort of infection onto the baby. You'd think they'd take you a little more seriously when you're looking out for the interest of the baby, its not like I'm just looking for drugs to dope on. Pregnant women also have a lower immunity to keep from harming the baby so we get sicker easier and quicker. Whatever though. I had another run around with the pharmacy and had to take it to the one that my insurance works directly through. Finally got my medicine and made sure it was safe for the baby. They didn't think it would cause any allergic reactions in the baby. Some babies develop allergies to medications their parents took while pregnant so that's something we'll have to look for once "it's" born and when the time comes that "it" any antibiotics. Hopefully breast feeding will keep our little one very healthy for a long time :)

Ethan was still stuffy this morning and I could tell his tonsils were swollen from his talking so I'm sure I caught it from him even though they said he didn't have strep either. So tomorrow we probably have to take him back to the doctor to have a culture done since his "mother" won't make the time to take him. On top of that Ethan gives kisses on the mouth so between myself and Ethan I'm sure Jake will have it. At least we all can get it within a short amount of time and get it over with. I've been running around wiping everything down with Lysol wipes and sprayed down all of Ethan's toys with a disinfectant. We definitely are going to be working on kisses on the cheek and not the mouth. With as often as those boys are sick Jake, myself and the baby cannot afford being sick all the time. 

I called into work as soon as I found out at 8:30am that I was contagious and not able to work today. My manager of course didn't answer her phone or the stores and never returned my call. So I called back 2 hours ago to make sure she got it and knew that I wouldn't be in and to see if she wanted me to find coverage. I offered yesterday to work Saturday for whoever filled in for me yesterday and she told me no all snotty. Today she told me they were busy and she didn't call me back. I asked if she wanted me to find coverage and she immediately gets attitude that "NO I'll stay and work ALL DAY again." I wanted to bite her head off back but instead I said that I was sorry and thank you for covering. Then she asked all bitchy if I was working Saturday then and I said yes I will and what time to be there. It irritates me that she gets all this attitude with me all the time. I have a doctors note and I've offered to work on my day off to cover that. She acts like I call in allll the time and have never covered for anyone else. Sure, its an inconvenience but she can either have one person out sick or I can go in to work, infect everyone else and then she's having to help cover 3 weeks worth of work because the other 6 girls got sick. Why be a manager if you're gonna be a wench about having to cover. That's what managers have to do when stuff like this comes up. Her attitude makes it SO hard to have any drive to go back to work tomorrow when she's gonna have attitude and she's the one I have to close with. But what can I do?

grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;

courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference


P.S. 6 days until we have a gender and I won't have to call my baby "It". Weeeee :D

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Sicky.

I'm sure I have a sinus infection. They're chronic. Thank you dad for your terrible sinus genes. I get a sinus infection every fall. Never fails. It used to be strep throat as a kid and somehow turned into sinus infections as I got older.

My head is so congested and making me dizzy, my throat is on fire, ears all plugged up and so off to the doctor I went. Strep was no even though they're going to culture it and call in 3 days if it is. I couldn't go to doctor I wanted because they didn't have an appointment until 3pm and I was hoping to go to work. I had to go to Urgent Care and man they suck. She just blew me off about everything. I KNOW when I have something that I get EVERY year. So instead she told me to get nasal spray and use that. I get to spend the next couple days getting progressively worse until someone will believe that I am truly sick and not just being a whiner about a cold.

Either way I missed work. I feel soooo bad when I miss work. We need the money. We have a baby on the way, we're paying a lawyer to get custody of the boys so they can have the safe, stable, loving environment that every child deserves and then I miss work and lose out on an 8hr shift. I feel terrible, I feel guilty. Jake works so hard for us and then I'm a big weeny who can't go to work and he has to work harder. He even picked up an 8 hour shift of overtime on Sunday from 10pm-6:30am. I need to find a way to make money from home because I can't stand thinking of how hard he works and how lazy I look. It makes me really emotional thinking about it and I've done really well on controlling the emotional side lately.

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Dream

Last night I slept sooooooo great. Thank you Sara for the amazing medicine. I woke up this morning feeling like a million bucks. Great sleep and no migraine. Man I was excited.

I had a dream. I had an adorable baby boy who was born April 3rd. Jake and I were sitting yesterday guessing when I'd have the baby. I said I'd probably be on time or overdue. He disagreed and said the 3rd or that week sometime. Of course in my dream its the 3rd. The baby was so cute though and so little, I just held him the entire dream and wouldn't share. The best part...the baby had two legs. Not a fin. No merman baby for me.

13 days until we find out. 2 1/2 hours and then its only 12 days. Can you feel the excitement?!?!?

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Migraines = Death

Holy wow. I woke up yesterday with a migraine. Puked that morning from pain. Tylenol didn't help. My head was buzzing and I was nauseous so I took a Benadryl to make myself sleep and off to nap time Jake and I went. Slept from 11:45 to who even knows. 4 something. Thank goodness for Benadryl, it never fails to put me into the best sleep coma ever. I managed to make it to girls night for dinner and tried to keep drinking lots of water thinking maybe it was dehydration. Usually with a migraine I can take an ibuprofen and pass out and it'll be gone. Not this time. After we went to bed I woke up about 5 times during the night with a throbbing head. Woke up feeling the same this morning. Round 2 of puking. Went off to work and was standing in the back room when my head started spinning, I got REALLY flushed and nauseous, ears ringing and vision blurred. I sat down really quickly before I passed out. I was too nauseous to drink my coffee I got because sometimes caffeine can help. I finally called the doctor because I couldn't tolerate the pain much longer and I couldn't risk doing a haircut and passing out with shears in my hand. I'm definitely not looking to perform a C-Section on myself. No way jose. I called the doctor and they wanted to me to come in and check my blood pressure and the baby. I believe the blood pressure check was due to preclampsia. Signs of preclampsia are:
  • High blood pressure (hypertension) — 140/90 millimeters of mercury (mm Hg) or greater — documented on two occasions, at least six hours but no more than seven days apart
  • Excess protein in your urine (proteinuria)
  • Severe headaches
  • Changes in vision, including temporary loss of vision, blurred vision or light sensitivity
  • Upper abdominal pain, usually under your ribs on the right side
  • Nausea or vomiting
  • Dizziness
  • Decreased urine output
  • Sudden weight gain, typically more than 2 pounds (.9 kilograms) a week
I happened to have the severe headaches, the nausea and vomiting, dizziness and the changes in vision. Thankfully my blood pressure was awesome like it usually is and the baby's heartbeat was 144. She said its just migraines and gave me two prescriptions. One has 3 things in it, one of them being caffeine. That's what I took when I got home and so far its helped as long as I don't get up for long or my head starts pounding. The 2nd is for nausea and to help me sleep.

We saw Sara today who is Shelley's other half basically. She was SO nice. She wrote me a note for work and told me to go home and take a nap. Too bad I've had no nap yet because we went on an adventure trying to fill my prescriptions. We tried to go to Albertsons. She took my prescriptions and said 20 minutes. I go back 20 minutes later and they told me that since I'm on State Medical that I cannot pay out of pocket or they'll kick me off it and so I must go to a Group Health pharmacy and have it filled. First of all I'm not a broke ass, I just am a "single" mother and can't afford a birth with no insurance. I guess if the state wants to pay EVERYTHING then go right ahead. I just figured I'd pay for what I could so I'm not some mooch. I was so upset because that's just more driving and I wanted to lay down. I was already trying not to barf in the car and the sun was blazing in my corneas. I'm too short for the visors in the car to do me any good and my sunglasses just weren't dark enough. Damn you Steve Madden! I was moaning and groaning about the pain every 5 minutes. Poor Jake probably wanted to just drag me behind the car. Would have probably done us both some good but fortunately he tolerated me. I bet he was excited to be able to go to work ;)

I feel so much better now that I'm not ready to go lay in bed and die. We find out what the baby is in TWO weeks. TWO! My god it was 12 weeks at one point. We are so excited!

This medicine is finally working at making me sleepy and reading these blogs are making me sick to my stomach. Stupid vision getting messed up by this baby. It better be the sweetest, most healthy little fart in the world for all I've had to deal with. It could be much worse and I'm very grateful that this is all I've had to go through, but I'd really like to be able to enjoy the rest of my pregnancy. Here's to hopin!